| Happy New Years .... |
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| 04:02pm 04/01/2005 |
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Well, It's the start of a new year. I hope everyone had fun! I really wanted to enjoy my new years, but I ended up breaking up with my boyfriend on New Years, which is probably why I've been ignoring all my phone calls since then ! It's never fun breaking up with someone on a holiday, especially one where you've been drinking for hours ... yea, good time to start shit huh? OH well ! |
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| Where to begin ... where to end? |
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| 03:31am 28/12/2004 |
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mood:  confused music: the computer hum
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It's been a while since I've tried to collect myself, or even think about people and thigns that matter most to me. I've been very selfish lately and I know I've hurt some real close friends lately. Although I'm not using lame Livejournal to extend an apology, I just don't have an outlet right now and well sad to say, I miss LJ.
Yesterday was the two month mark for me and Michael for our second time dating. It's really overwhelming, to be honest I was really afraid I was going to get my feelings hurt when I first went into it. I think at the time I was really confident in myself. Lately I'm lacking that confidence and my close friends that I've pushed away probably see that. For that matter, I've been very self-destructive and basically non-productive for the past two months. I was really hoping to get my act together and keep promises to myself and others. I know I put others ahead of myself and then hold it against them. I hate that, I don't understand why I do that ... maybe I just like to get angry once in awhile.
It's time for a change. The gods are sending me signals haha, nothing is working !
Bah, this is real poor writing, I can't even keep on track. I think about too many little things at once and don't seem to grasp the big picture. I need someone to get in my brain and do some filing and help me get some priorities. Right now I'm on my way to explode and take everyone down with me. |
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| 04:27pm 24/11/2004 |
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mood: confused music: something on kelly's computer
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He told me he loved me, I feel it's too soon. |
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| BITCHES |
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| 04:47pm 27/10/2004 |
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Hah, I'm in Seattle .. over and out bitches ! |
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| Pictures |
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| 04:26pm 17/10/2004 |
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It's been a while since I don't have a digital camera anymore. So just to show you all how stupid I am <3
 
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| Yes? |
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| 02:01pm 02/10/2004 |
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mood:  dirty music: the anniversary - devil on my side
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Well, it's been a while ! Nothing too exciting ever happends that is worth talking about. I've just been working and saving money... in a few days my sister turns 21, and in a few month I turn 20. My last year as a teen. On the 27th of this month me and Kelly are taking a trip to Seattle and hopefully finding an apartment and jobs while we're there for a week. Our lease is up at the end of November and our apartment is foul !
I've been feeling kinda weird latly, and well last night out of no where, Michael text messaged me. I don't know why he wanted to talk to me, it's been so long and he didn't even try to keep in contact, hell he told me he was moving to another state, I don't understand people. |
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| why oh why |
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| 10:32am 07/08/2004 |
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blarg ! lately nothing can keep me entertained, excited, happy. I'm not happy with my job. I'm not happy with my friends. I'm not happy with what i do. I know it sounds silly to complain about it and you're probably saying, "Why don't you just change it all?". Yes, because it's that easy ! Mainly, i just can't have fun when i go out anymore, i need to meet new people. |
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| poopdick |
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| 01:30am 31/07/2004 |
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mood:  cranky music: silence
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yea, so i'm here visiting my mom's house ... which is kinda lame. my sis is with some dude and she knew i was here. she even came by today while i was in the shower and didn't bother to stay. my mom had work the whole time i was here and finally at 9pm she wants to go to dinner and a movie ... which was cool i didn't like the movie or dinner though. i feel like i've wasted my time when i have a lot of shit to do.... not to mention im getting sick and feel it getting worse ... i can't talk, breath, or eat .... it blows fucking monkey balls. i hate you |
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| so it's 8:47 am |
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| 08:47am 24/07/2004 |
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mood:  bored music: ladytron
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it's super early, and i'm about to go to work... i don't feel like driving, hell i don't even feel like being awake. i'm so bored and tired of this stupid state. why don't any normal or fun people live here?! |
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| <3 |
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| 05:48pm 06/07/2004 |
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mood:  bouncy music: sneaker pimps
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philip's got a boy |
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| the simple life |
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| 02:34pm 22/06/2004 |
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well, past week has been interesting. i've been having fun, today i woke up at 9 and i cleaned up a lil. we had a party at the apartment saturday and i ended up getting a drinking ticket, which is lame. also, i went to see austin last night. i really just wanted to stay and cuddle or at least talk, but he kept making moves and kissing me. im not saying i dont enjoy it, but i just know we have nothing in common and he is only physically attracted to me. i just cant be with someone who can't contribute in good conversation and have fun without always being sexually active. the worse part is, i was trying to make conversation .. and he never talks to me but i always include him into the conversation so i end up talking to his roomate, who we share a lot in common and he's good conversation..... this just has "scenerio" written all over it.
anywho.. i don't start my new job till next week. it's really nice to have a week off of work since last friday was my last day at work.
im home alone cleaning and listening to glassjaw, someone come over and we can have fun <3 |
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| ciao |
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| 01:59am 17/06/2004 |
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mood:  amused music: tv
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good bye Glendale, you wont be missed.
oh, on another note .. dance party at me and kelly's call me
cell:6027997562
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| hooray beer |
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| 12:18am 14/06/2004 |
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mood:  accomplished music: aqua teen hunger force
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good times good times, does anyone know what happened to my underwear this weekend? |
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| i have to fart |
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| 01:14am 01/06/2004 |
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mood:  blank music: kenna - sunday after you
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i've been feeling kinda weird latly, and i've been trying to figure out what it is. i was thinking it was the pressure i was feeling, with switching jobs and moving into an appartment. then i thought it may have something to do with the fact that my mom doesn't want me to go to seattle. i have been having really bad anxiety, like at work the other day i couldnt stop shaking, i had to go outside and just sit for like 15 mins. somethign needs to change, but i dont know what yet. |
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| why does every update have to have the word "poop" in it |
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| 01:30pm 23/05/2004 |
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mood: indifferent music: Murder City Devils - Boom Swagger Boom
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last night i went and saw troy. it was seriously way too long. it reminded me of lord of the rings meets braveheart meets conan the barbarian. it was pretty boring, the acting was terrible, and the dialog was cheesy. i can't say that i enjoyed the movie, i think the only thing that redeems it, is that every chance they get they try and show off some part of brad pit and see how close they can get to showing his cock or ass. anywho, it was cool to see katie, and nice to come home early and pass out... friday i had lots of fun, but im tired and i can't wait to get a new job ! |
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| 10:39pm 15/05/2004 |
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i got my bridge pierced, pics comming soon .... btw im doing better ... <3 oh, btw fuck my job and fuck you joe <3 |
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| mother's day |
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| 06:44pm 10/05/2004 |
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mood:  curious music: hot hot heat - no, not now
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well, yesterday .. i woke up and gave my mom some gifts for mother's day and we had breakfast. later on we went to see cirque du soleil .. it was real fun, it was even better that my mom really enjoyed it, my sister didn't bother to come which kinda bugged my mom, but well .. that's my sister. verakai came into town, i wish it was the o show, because i have already seen it .. but it was amazing.
today i have off work, well .. im suspended but it's nice not being at work for once. sitting at home playing video games, im glad i have time to myself. |
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